Kebodohan Ku Menyakitkan Hati dan Minda

Salam di ucap b4 sume luahan at nih tecurah..
1st of all, takziah 2 family step sis me yg baru jek kehilangan sis tiri me pada 26 feb = khamis coz excident kne langgar lari..

Hurmmm..baru mo mula cite... Actually bulan nih memang agak menyakitkan at as cuz me nih ske jek cari pasai. Ade jek point die mo sound me. Wey, syukur r aku mo balik umah sebulan sekali drpd aku xbalik langsung!!! Mulut ko 2 wat sume org benci ko tau x..!!! Lau ko xde maybe aman dunia nih kot... bukan ape la just bcoz of her mouth lintang pukang life org laen.. ayat menyengat x hingat dunia. sediam2 aku pon xde la lazer cm ko.. tepakse tahan coz nih la life aku..bemula la jadi seorg yg BiAdAp!!!(ok cukup r cite sal die nih.no use at all..)

Satu lg kes...
nih wat aku agak penin...
Agak sewel tok dibicarakan tapi tiz is reality..
Aku nih ad la admired some1.. Penah jek luahkan perasaan tapi feedback selalu jek wat aku confused.. Slalu sgt dah tnye sal status relationship sampai aku pon da naek penin.. Bukan mo harap pape la atleast jgn permaenkan perasaan org.. x nafi la sejak die wujud dlm life sume boys da x dipedulikan kecuali yg betoi2 rapat jek cm bro nuox, syafiq, skol fren, and also college`s fren.. tau le kenai pon dr website (xpyh la mo publish). just mo comformation jek... xde lak mo push soh jd pape pon... da le me nih spesis xfaham bahasa yg cm isyarat ke ayt belit2 ke... lau ego sgt pon ckp jek direct kn senang.. xde la susah org mo fikir... lau tebace kire naceb la.. da xbeminat mo terus terang coz da rase laen sgt ngn kamo... lau kamo still mo diam kn diri ok fineeeeee... me akn cube ikut rentak kamo.. lau me rase betoi2 da xleh time xtau la nt.. me namo ad paksaan dlm bkawan o pape jek la ngn me.. cume 1 jek me mntak.. Jangan la wat me confused.. Please terus terang jek ape hubungan ngn kamo mo bine ngn me.. fren ke adeq ke o whateva la.. i dont mind.. just tell me da truth..

Teluah la isi at yg beku dalam ati.. 2 in 1 kot... tenang shitet at nih... Sick of Life!!!

Me a KpM iM`s StUdEnT aLrEaDy..

Salam..
hello folks.. Long time i didnt publish my news.. Anyway here little bit experience when im in KPM Indera Mahkota..

On 6th jan, ive registed 2 kpm im alone...
got lots of trouble a long the registration...

1. my name n my classnate name has changed.. finnally, after got the tshirt we`re met and changed back our real name..

2. i`ve took my stuffs on my own (such a crazy things i ever faced).. But, luckyly, got some1 helped me.. He send his son here that is same course with me.. im quite shame with him becoz he came from Perak and can wait for his son while my family just leave me as i have 2 be independent. He send me 2 my hostel with his wife. I can say nothin with that only have a short speak with them. They have kind hearted coz help me without take any advantage from me.. Hohoho im SHAME!!!! Just like want 2 kill my couzin.. By the way, i have 2 faced by myself.. Finally, ``THANK YOU SO MUCH``the only things that i can say 2 both of them.. Thanks again and i`ll never forget urkindness.. :)

3. I cant communicate with my roomate friendly... I dunno why becoz take time 4 me 2 remember all the such things.. Da `st person became my fren is Azma Yuzaira a.k.a Eira.. She is a polite, soft and qiute clumsy gurl.. I felt confortable when i talking 2 her.. We are havin lunch together as we are got chemical i guest.. And finnally we are started our Orientation..

about the orientation i`ll tell ya later ok as i have my own idea on it..
thanks 4 spending ur time reading my blog..
:D
hohohoooooo

Bad Dream on 16th December 2008..

I`ve Cried 4 It When I Was Awake.. I Have No Heart When Im Wake Up Last Morning Becoz Of Tiz Dreams..

Morning everyone..
Today i would like 2 share somethin hOrRibLe.. About my dreams last nite.. Hurmmm.. How can i start it as it brought meaningful in my life..

Ok i`ll start my story now..
My 1st dreams :
At the evening(i guest coz im not sure the time was), it was held a wedding ceremony. I didnt really know whos goin 2 marry as it was held at MJ`s house.. Well, i just acted like a normal person whos loafing at the back of older people.. Suddently! After the Marriage Contract was finish and all the witness say ``Sah!``, i`ve looked at the newly married and i`ve got shock!

Oh My God!!!
How can tiz happened to me???!!!
Im lookin at the newly married that kissin in front of guest(usually, bridegroom will kiss the bride`s forehead but tiz newly marrige havin lips kiss) 2 happy i guest.. Ok just forget bout tiz.. I want 2 tells u bout whos the newly marriage..
They was my beloved man in my life(rite now) and one of my cuz!!!
So sucks!!!
How come the man i loved like crazy can marry my cuz..???!!! Wheres her husband???!!! Her children???!! Y tiz happened???!!! I lost all my feeling when i saw him, her and their action.. I jus can watchin, lost my feelin@im broken heart and lost my way, and jus went in front of TV actin watchin cartoon..
Unaspectly, he came besides me(sit at the chair nearest me) and acting like want 2 join me watchin the cartoon.. And i cant stand anymore and i jus cryin, cryin and cryin.. Hes only jeer at me when im cryin.. And finally, im awake n cryin at my bed while covered my face with my curtain at 5.34am.. then asleep again..

My alarm clock was ringging sound, i opened my eyes and became blur.. I speaked 2 my heart, ``Y tiz happpened 2 me? Y u`ve done tiz 2 me _ _ _ _ _ and cuz..??? What kind of sinned i`ve done 2 both of u till tiz can entered to my dreams???``.. No time 2 think and i jus prepared 4 goin 2 work..

Now, i dont know my feelin bout him after tiz dreams came 2 me..
What should i do? Jus ignored it o think bout it till im tired 2 think bout it? It quite disturbed my life day now.. Damn thingggs..!!! God Help Me...!!!